I know that we have the most primitive public transportation in the modern world but I find jeepneys really quaint and a good place to be in when you’re people watching. Also, for some reason, it is the place to be for one of those rare & seminal realizations. As I was looking at the passing scenes and most of them are common scenes of poverty (i.e. begging, selling & living on the streets, serenading passengers to make a quick buck), it hit me that not only a lot of people are robbed of having decent lives, they are also being robbed of opportunities to develop their interests, talents and becoming the best persons that they can be. I know that it is Maslow 101 and no matter how lame it may sound, I just begun to recognize it at that single moment. A delayed reaction but there it is.
I just finished a book called Choices by Penelope Lively. It is a story of three generation of young women who despite life’s limitations refused to compromise with it and lived their lives in their own terms. It didn’t exactly had the best narrative. In some parts of the book, the author has more or less have digressed to unnecessary descriptions and lecturing about the state of society. But for some reason, the book has resonated with me and I think it has become a subtle reminder from the universe to plod on and to keep on moving forward despite the odds that I face.
You see being jobless gives me lots of time in my hands to process my past experiences and adventures. I guess, the search for what I really want to do for the rest of my life has ended. I basically know what I really want to do- Alternative education specifically environmental education. I just find it relevant and at its most fundamental core, highly effective as a medium of learning. Now, my next hurdle is just to continue finding out outlets where I can do it, which is a tad difficult here. Basically, my life now is just a long continuity of waiting. I am looking forward to that day when the waiting ends. I just hope soon.